Dear Daddy

 

  1. Dear Daddy,

  2. I just wanted to thank you
  3. for looking after me so well.
  4. Even though I’m not yet born.
  5. I know you already try
  6. harder than Superman.

     

  7. You won’t even let mommy eat sushi.
  8. But I need to ask you a favor.
  9. Warning,
  10. It’s about boys.
  11. Because, you see,
  12. I will be born a girl,
  13. which means that
  14. by the time I’m fourteen,
  15. the boys in my class
  16. will have called me
  17. a whore, a bitch, a cunt
  18. and many other things.
  19. It’s just for fun of course.
  20. Something boys do,
  21. so you won’t worry
  22. and I understand that.
  23. Perhaps you did the same
  24. when you were young,
  25. trying to impress some of the other boys.
  26. I’m sure you didn’t mean anything by it.
  27. Still, some of the people
  28. won’t get the joke.
  29. And funnily enough,
  30. it isn’t any of the girls,
  31. it’s some of the boys.
  32. So by the time I turn sixteen,
  33. a couple of the boys will have
  34. snuck their hands down my pants
  35. while I’m so drunk
  36. I can’t even stand straight.
  37. And although I say no,
  38. they just laugh.
  39. It’s funny right?
  40. If you saw me daddy,
  41. you would be so ashamed,
  42. because I’m wasted.
  43. No wonder I’m raped
  44. when I’m twenty-one.
  45. Twenty-one and on my way home
  46. in a taxi driven by the son of a guy
  47. you went swimming with every Wednesday.
  48. The guy who always told insulting jokes.
  49. But they were of course only jokes,
  50. so you laughed.
  51. Had you known that his son
  52. would end up raping me,
  53. you would’ve told him
  54. to get a grip.
  55. But how could you know?
  56. He was just a boy
  57. telling weird jokes
  58. and in any case it wasn’t your business.
  59. You were just being nice.
  60. But his son, raised on these jokes,
  61. becomes my business.
  62. Then finally I meet Mr. Perfect.
  63. and you’re so happy for me daddy
  64. because he really adores me
  65. and he’s smart with a great job
  66. and all through the winter
  67. he goes cross country skiing
  68. three times a week just like you.
  69. But one day he stops being Mr. Perfect,
  70. and I don’t know why.
  71. Wait, am I overreacting?
  72. One thing I do know,
  73. I’m not the victim type.
  74. I’m raised to be a strong
  75. and independent woman.
  76. But one night it’s just
  77. all too much for him.
  78. With work and the in-laws
  79. and the wedding coming up
  80. so he calls me a whore,
  81. just like you called a girl
  82. in middle school a whore once.
  83. Then another day he hits me.
  84. I mean I’m way out of line,
  85. I can really be a bitch sometimes,
  86. but we’re still the world’s greatest couple
  87. and I’m so confused because
  88. I love him and I hate him
  89. and I’m not sure
  90. if I really did do something wrong,
  91. and then one day
  92. he almost kills me.
  93. It all goes black.
  94. Even though I have a PhD,
  95. a fantastic job,
  96. I’m loved by my friends and family,
  97. I’m well brought up
  98. and nobody saw this coming.
  99. Dear daddy,
  100. this is the favor I want to ask;
  101. one thing always leads to another.
  102. So please stop it
  103. before it gets the chance to begin.
  104. Don’t let my brothers call girls whores,
  105. because they’re not.
  106. And one day some little boy
  107. might think it’s true.
  108. Don’t accept insulting jokes
  109. from weird guys by the pool
  110. or even friends,
  111. because behind every joke,
  112. there is always some truth.
  113. Dear daddy,
  114. I know you will protect me
  115. from lions, tigers, guns, cars and even sushi
  116. without even thinking about
  117. the danger to your own life.
  118. But dear daddy,
  119. I will be born a girl,
  120. please do everything you can
  121. so that that won’t
  122. stay the greatest danger of all.

 

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